One day more of school... what?!? I am still pondering how one year of school can go by so quickly and one month of school go by so slowly! There is something definitely questionable about my perception of time right now. Also, I am so sorry that I haven't posted since January! Again, how could it go by so quickly? Although, I am pretty surprised at how many posts I've made this year. I really don't like writing, but it has been fun to share with you my experiences this year.
One day more... I wish I had something profound or epic to say at this moment, but I don't. Other than the always true and always encouraging truth that God is good, powerful, and present. Those are three characteristics of God that I've always known in my head, but I am slowly learning through experience. Trusting that God is good and that what He gives me each day is good has been my biggest struggle, but has also been the source of the most hope. The last month or so of school has been, probably, the hardest month of my life, but God remains faithful through it all!
Anyway, it has been a trying year, to say the least, but somehow God has brought me through. I still don't know why exactly He brought me out here to teach, especially since this year has confirmed my belief that I never thought I should be a teacher! I want to try to seek Him more and His plans for me out here.
One of the reasons I felt led to move here was because I was getting too comfortable in my life back home. As I struggled through being a teacher's assistant this year, I really wanted to seek out Christ more, but somehow even in the hardest times, I felt far from Him. My desire over the summer is to spend significant time just with the Lord. Even though I know I've grown this year, it still feels insignificant in the long run. Why can't I just get everything together overnight? :) But life isn't about the product all the time, sometimes it's just about the process.
I hope that wasn't too cliché or cheesy... I'm tired and it's the night before the last day of my first year of being a teacher's assistant!
All that's left to say is praise the Lord. He is good.
Peace
Tuesday, May 27, 2014
Wednesday, January 1, 2014
2014, A New Year
Happy New Year, everyone! I am quite surprised and puzzled at how quickly yet slowly 2013 seemed to have gone by...
I have always been a little afraid of making New Year's resolutions, so I have never really gotten into it. But there are so many things that I want to do better this year than last, that I might just try it this year. Actually part of my resolution is to make a resolution... that doesn't really make much sense, so I will try to explain.
Behind my fear of resolutions is the fear of failure. I don't want to try something or promise to do something that is hard and that I will likely fail at doing, so I just don't try at all. This is a very oppressive and "un-freed" way of thinking. One of my favorite songs is called Free To Fail by VOTA:
"Love came in like a whisper screaming
Your guilt and your shame were meant for me
You are the one who's breaking my heart all over again
Nothing I do or say can change your mind
You are the one who's given me more than I could repay
You lived your life so I could live mine
We are free to fail"
The beauty of our freedom in Christ is the freedom to fail. We shouldn't try to fail, but we should try no matter if we fail (because, in fact we all will fail). I'm sure you've heard the saying that anything worth doing at all is worth doing well. Well, I would agree with that, but I would also say that anything worth doing is worth doing poorly as well. If something is worth doing or should be done, it should be done no matter if we can do it well or not. Anything that God sets before us to do or be, we should do or be it whether we do it well or poorly. He knows our abilities and sets our tasks before us. We have freedom in Christ's grace and mercy to strive for holiness by His Spirit. So that is why I'm making the resolution to: not fear failure and strive to do my best in all that He is calling me to do each day and each moment by His grace, His power, and His Spirit.
May God bless your new year with His grace and a new assurance of your freedom in Him. He has lived a perfect life, died a sinner's death, and He lives again today, so that we can live an abundant life with Him.
I have always been a little afraid of making New Year's resolutions, so I have never really gotten into it. But there are so many things that I want to do better this year than last, that I might just try it this year. Actually part of my resolution is to make a resolution... that doesn't really make much sense, so I will try to explain.
Behind my fear of resolutions is the fear of failure. I don't want to try something or promise to do something that is hard and that I will likely fail at doing, so I just don't try at all. This is a very oppressive and "un-freed" way of thinking. One of my favorite songs is called Free To Fail by VOTA:
"Love came in like a whisper screaming
Your guilt and your shame were meant for me
You are the one who's breaking my heart all over again
Nothing I do or say can change your mind
You are the one who's given me more than I could repay
You lived your life so I could live mine
We are free to fail"
The beauty of our freedom in Christ is the freedom to fail. We shouldn't try to fail, but we should try no matter if we fail (because, in fact we all will fail). I'm sure you've heard the saying that anything worth doing at all is worth doing well. Well, I would agree with that, but I would also say that anything worth doing is worth doing poorly as well. If something is worth doing or should be done, it should be done no matter if we can do it well or not. Anything that God sets before us to do or be, we should do or be it whether we do it well or poorly. He knows our abilities and sets our tasks before us. We have freedom in Christ's grace and mercy to strive for holiness by His Spirit. So that is why I'm making the resolution to: not fear failure and strive to do my best in all that He is calling me to do each day and each moment by His grace, His power, and His Spirit.
May God bless your new year with His grace and a new assurance of your freedom in Him. He has lived a perfect life, died a sinner's death, and He lives again today, so that we can live an abundant life with Him.
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